Church Camp

About half a week ago. i was sitting in the hall where Fusion was assigned. yeah, i was tired, angry, pissed off, depressed and stressed. i wanted my ipod, my food, my sleep, my bed, my computer, my music, etc. i realize now that i had been so stupid and stubborn. selfish. i should not have been thinking of the distractions. no. I should have been thinking about how the next few days would be. i would have to experience Jesus', though not even 0.1 % of what he had to go through, 48 hours before he got crucified.

camp made me really realise what God's love really was about. yeh before i was just like, God's love. hm ok, that's cool awesome. but now it's just hit me in the face, hard. for all the temptations that I've put in front of God. it made me feel like such an idiot. i didn't need those. i don't need any temptations. all i need is God :)

the worship sessions were really amazing. they made me feel as if for once i wanted to sing the true meanings, the lyrics, to no one but God. for once i didn't feel stupid and awkward raising my hand up to praise the Lord, but instead i wanted to stand there, in God's awe, praising him, forever. i wanted our worship to become better, and now it's really come true.

the night sessions, really impacted my camp "journey". i was afraid, shivering, praying [HEAPS], shocked, sad, ashamed, somewhat excited, and most of all, i put my trust all in God. the countless prayers i said to him, they gave me strength one by one, as if empowering me like fuel to a car. i was deathly afraid of the dark, but now i am proud to say, it might be a big deal anymore, because i know that God will shine a light as a path for me always, that he will drag me out of the darkness, letting me know that i am not alone. that he is always here for me. as he is always here for everyone :)

God, You really are wonderful, you really are beautiful. you are able to move mountains and the oceans will part for you, Lord. and most importantly, i will sing of your love forever.