even before school started i was so nervous, counting down the days till i had to once again bare the boring classes of school.
but why was i nervous for? i dont go to a private school, or in VCE, it was plain old year 8, how hard could it be? (hey that rhyms!) still i was very paranoid.
i absoulutly did NOT want to attend school anyway, i couldnt be bothered waking up early again, wearing school uniform( winter now, even more annoying ) and getting homework again. all i wanted was the holidays to last forever.
that night, i soon relised how selfish i was. i go to a public school, things will be a breeze, i shouldny be stressing about nothing, but as myself, my stupid self, i still stressed and dreaded the next day.
that night, it was late already, i couldnt sleep and was talking to a few people. things happened and i started to cry, pain had started to drown me. after from going downstairs to our little room next to the livingroom, with a mirrored wall, i sat on the chair and cried in the darkness of night. But then, i prayed to God, i needed his help, his guidence and love. so i did pray, prayed for God to give me strength to over come this pain, to let all this worry to drift away from me. that i grow in faith towards him, and grow in a way that i could also help the others around me. I prayed for the ones i love, friends, family, and then of course school. prayed that he would take all the doubt and worry away, take away all the stress and to guide me, to bring me back on 'that path' again. And so, today at school. things were actually great, i might of been abit sleepy, but in the end i was pumped and was bouncing up and down (litterally) and plenty of smiles were shared around. school was good, all the worries had gone away, i forgot all my pain, and thanked God.
we always drift away from God, that path he has planned perfectly for us. from drifting away, we experience pain and suffering, but when we pray, pray for strength, for his guidence, he WILL place us back where we should be. answering our prayers, sometimes not tomorrow, or today, but he answers our prayers in AMAZING ways. the Lord works miracles ;D
- this was nothing huge, but something i truely thank God for!
- cindy li <2
wow. thats amazing how God can give you strength when you need it the most :D
ReplyDeletethanks for sharing CINDY
- josh
:D:D ofc he answers :) hehehe. lovvveeeed ur sharing :P aiyooo~ u broke our streak with ending our posts with a song LOL. :)
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wait wait..
ive got one...
you are my sunshine... my only sunshine, you make me happy! , when skies are grey, but dont u know dear, how much i love you....
so please, dont take my sunshine away!
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