year 12 time :\

It's finaaaally here--my final year of schooling.

It's already been a couple of weeks, and I'm doing fine--so far.

But despite it only been two weeks, I've learnt a very important thing.

See, the reason I've been doing 'fine' is because I'm not doing everything--God is.

However, a couple of days ago i forgot about this, and well I tried to take things into my own hands.
I had a lengthy English essay that I wanted to do before Saturday (tomorrow), just so I could show my tutor, so I pushed myself and tried and...well...failed miserably. When I say 'miserably' I mean, my essay was not flowing the way it usually does, things were muddled, I'd forgotten to include things--and I was getting a slight headache. With that, I still had lots of other work to do, and then I realised--I was getting a tiny dose of what people call 'stress', and I am not usually one to get stressed. So, I stopped doing work for the night and, before sleeping, I told God, "Look, sorry for trying to take control of things....". I thought, let's let God decide how this plays out...

And good thing I did, because I am feeling much more relaxed at the moment, and I actually got the essay done, since I got some assistance during school. :)

There's been a couple other things--I lately haven't been wanting my Education Captain role.

I didn't initially get it, and after that I didn't really want it. However, my friend "relinquished" it to me, so I hadn't really any choice. Perhaps that's what God wants? I wondered.

Before yesterday, I really didn't want it, as I feared it would interfere with VCE. But yesterday we had a leadership training seminar, and well, I think God practically told me he wanted me to do it, because after the session, we all felt motivated to lead the school--the seminar was a LOT different to previous years, it was so much more intense this time around---apparently, this was the first time I was a captain or a leader =="

How was it intense? Well....let's just say it involved sharing (to show our individual courage), and there was lots of crying around....by nearly everyone. And well, now I'm more than willing to take on this role, because I think there's some purpose that God finds in it. Whatever it is, I'll follow through :)

To sum up this lengthy blog, I guess...just put your full trust in God. It's been said many times before, but seriously....just do it---it takes a lot off your head :)

GAVIN