words cannot express how much i want to worship God, how much i want to pursue that purpose he gave me. I cannot believe that God chose someone like me to fulfill his purpose.
To fill you all in, i very reluctantly accepted the way that i am only a few weeks ago, and coming into camp, i somehow just knew that it would be time to tell people about it. but i had such a huge fear of rejection and judgement, in particular, from my family and other parents at church.
so i kept trying to hide it, but it became a huge burden on my heart. and then that fateful saturday night, the Holy Spirit kept trying to pull it out of me, but i tried holding back---for those of you who could see me, i was preeeeeetty much hyperventilating, and shaking. i had to lie down. it was freaky mannnn. and then i felt a hand on my shoulder, and saw some silhouettes above me---it was brandon and aaron. they gave me continual support until i finally, after what felt like 10, 20 minutes ==" i stuttered, until i finally blurted it out.
to my great surprise, relief, amazement, joy, both aaron and brandon said: "thats okay, we don't judge you."
i just couldnt help but cry, half for joy, and half for shame.....
every person i told just accepted me straight away, and i knew that God had set out my path for me already, He knew that this church would be perfect for me. the burden at the start of the camp had been lifted, and i never felt more wanting to praise God. =]
You have no idea how much i miss each one of you already. This verse i won't forget:
"So in Christ, we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all of the others."
Romans 12:5
Everybody, thank you so much for all the support, i am confident that i have taken my first few steps towards my purpose, and i pray not only for me but for all of you, that your hearts will never cease burning for God, and that the Holy Spirit will lead all of us to God's designated rol;es for us.
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Gav, it's wonderful to know that you've taken the next step of faith in Christ! Gav, as long as you're connected with God, there's nothing to be afraid of. I'm glad that you took the courage, even if it was extremely difficult, to tell us. We're your brothers and sisters in Christ, so we would never judge you, but we'll definitely pray continually for you!
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WE LOVE YOU
AND GOD LOVES YOU.
you're amazing just the way you are (lalalalala) and it is so encouraging to see that you have already accepted this as your purpose and you're willing to live it out for God. YAY FOR BABY STEPS! or a massive step of courage for you!
YOURE AWESOME GAVIN AND WE'LL NEVER JUDGE YOUUUUU. <3
p.s your HOLY...spirit made me laugh HAHAHAHAHA
GAVIN NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES YOU'VE HEARD THIS AND HOW MANY TIMES YOU WILL CONTINUE TO HEAR IT
ReplyDeleteWe're ALWAYS there for YOU, LOVING and SUPPORTING you in EVERYTHING, seriously ALWAYS and FOREVER :)
being able to tell us something that you were unsure and uncomfortable about shows a HUGE amount of TRUST that you have for all of us which isn't something that we can gain by trying but is something that develops and just knowing that you think of us in that way is just so INCREDIBLE!!
and you can ALWAYS be reassured that WE DEFINITELY trust you back and shall always be there for you :)
But of course there is something that is even more IMPORTANT than all of us, which is GOD:)
He did and has done SO MANY WONDERFUL things through you Gav and there is so much more to come!!! Everyone knows that your walk and faith in God is SO POWERFUL and STRONG that nothing, absolutely NOTHING will get into the way of God and you :)
oh yes the holy spirit thing also got my to lol haha:P
I YOU ALLLLLLLL ><
ReplyDeleteseriously each of your comments has touched my heart, im amazed at all this love thats coming from you all....you are all blessings :)
(curse cindy for killing you all in mafia LOL)
ill never back down from God, dont you guys worry! i know He has my back, as well as all of yours!!!
*I LOVE YOU ALLLL ><
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